Ayah In Memory (20th January 2004)

last raya picture with ayah, 2003

19th jan..6 years ago..me and my sister went out for dinner at the hospital canteen. We were talking about how we hoped that ayah will wake up from comma and everything will gonna be just fine. But we didn't realized that Allah has other plan for him until subuh 20th jan, while azan, he went away forever peacefully. I looked at the monitor hoping that the line moves up but what i saw was a static line and a long sound with no pause. I cried the moment doctor announced the death.

That was 6 years ago..and how fast time flies..Those memories with ayah will always remain forever. Semoga Allah melimpahkan rahmat ke atas roh ayah. Rest in peace. Alfatihah...

5 years(18/12/04-18/12/09)

Happy anniversary, my love:
After all these years, my lover still!
Perhaps we've come this far by force of will;
Perhaps by what sweet winds within us move.
Years alone do not decisive prove,
As time's a box that holds both good and ill;
Nor can one long be loving without skill;
Nor long be cool below and warm above.
In you I've found a shoreline for my sea
Vast enough to hold me in its arms,
Embracing both the turbulence and deep,
Reconciling me to limitation.
So may you find a wilderness in me,
A place of windswept waves and rippled calms,
Restoring you to realms you cannot reap,
Yielding neither home nor destination

To my husband : Happy 5th wedding anniversary

Lazy Saturday

It's been sooooooooooo long since i update this blog...Actually i had forgotten the id and password to login into this blogspot account. Hehe..then i found my old notebook which i wrote my blogspot login details. That's why i'm writing now...This past few months, i've been blog hopping from one blog to another. personal blog, cooking blog and politics blog. From there, I also found out that we can make money by blogging. It is interesting i guess. You can make money by sitting in front of your computer writing few lines in your blog and later money is bank-in into your account. Of course you can't be rich but at least this is the easiest way to make money.
So for today, I'm not going to write any story yet. Let the idea flows later. Warm-up first. Salam.

Sunyi

Korang pernah rasa sunyi? Sunyi yg macam telinga rasa berdengung tu..Sekarang ni aku rasa sunyi dan sedih sesangat...Mak dah balik kampung semalam. Hilang lah teman semayang terawih aku, teman memasak aku dan teman bila aku bangun sahur. Yang tinggal cuma kenangan dan rasa sunyi yang amats. Semalam aku memasak sensorang. Dari pagi Di keluar keja dan balik dekat2 bukak posa. Sahur pagi ni pun ku bangun prepare foods sensorang. Hmm..sedeynya. Aku kemas bilik mak supaya aku tak rasa macam dia ada lagi. Hmm hari ni pun masih lagi sunyi...

Letih

Hari ni dah 13 Ramadan..Betul ke tak ye..Cepat nya masa berlalu..Soon Ramadan will leaving. Makes me wonder wether amalan aku untuk bulan posa ni ada peningkatan tak dari tahun2 terdahulu. Baca quran pun masa subuh weekend je. Nak baca tiap2 malam letih ya amats. Mata pun tak larat nak bukak. Tapi ada pulak kederat pi menengok citer Judging Amy kat Hallmark Channel. Hmm..setan dah takde ke aku setannya. hehe. Semlm for the first time aku skip terawih sebab aku buat Tahlil untuk arwah ayah aku. Cakap kat mak aku pagi2 isok masa sahur nak buat. Alih2 mak aku yang buat sensorang sebab aku nak kena prepare lauk sahur. Kat opis ni aku tgh prepare material utk meeting sebutharga ptg ni. Letih siut ambik masa update blog dulu. Hmm makan gaji buta ke..Taklah mana ada aku rest 10 minit je. nanti sambung balik. Keja dengan gomen ni camtu la sibuk tak menentu. Bonus ciput je..Oppss..Alhamdulillah bonus sikit pun tetap dapat jugak. Kadang2 aku merungut jugak keja banyak sangat sampai naik migren aku. Tapi tu la manusia ni tak bersyukur dgn apa yang ada. Asik la nak merungut. D (panggilan mesra utk laki aku..tak main la abang2 ni) selalu marah kalo aku merungut. Hmm tetengah boring ni aku duk pk nak masak apa ptg ni. Aiyah ni satu mslh lagi letih wo nak balik masak plak. opps termerungut lagi.

Lamaaaaaaaaaa tak update

Lamanya aku tak update blog ni. Duk blog hopping jugak baru semangat nak update blog ni. Currently busy sikit. Bulan-bulan puasa pun kena kerja kuat. Good news, kakitangan kerajaan dapat cuti umum 23hb ni. Hehe..

Happy Birthday

Today my husband's birthday. At 1 am, i wished him. I'm the first person to wish him. To my husband, happy birthday sayang. I wish for your happiness and loads of money. So that I can live happily too.... Plan nak buat chicken chop tapi dia mintak belanja makan kfc je...hmm save energy makcik...

Last day of course eperolehan today. Thank God. Tomorrow will be in the office.

Happy birthday

Yesterday (20/9) was my 27th birthday...Mak, sisters, fiance and friends greeted me but this year will definitely different because my father won't be here to greet me. Yesterday genap la 9 bulan he left us. enough about that. My fiance treat me for dinner last night.

Today not much work to do. need to study the proposal for parliament system. Few companies called for presentation. Cakap je sibuk. malas nak layan le. chiow!!!adios!!!!

Jumaat already

Dah hari Jumaat rupanya :-) . Baru ada mood nak update. Hari ni jalan agak jem. Maybe because today is Friday. Minggu ni Saturday tak keja. Yuhuuu!!!!!! Tapi dah plan nak balik kampung. Mak dah bising sebab lama tak balik. Since my father passed away, she is the only one I have. Kena la balik jenguk dia selalu.

Today, loads of work need to be done since esok nak balik kg. Kalau tak Saturday pun dtg ofis. Semalam meeting sampai pukul 6.30 . Meeting RMK 9. Rupanya bahagian aku 5 minit je diorang bincang. tunggu punya la lama. Masa nak balik, hujan selebat-lebatnya. Terpaksa la meredah jugak hujan ditambah dengan jem. Memang complete kadar ketensionan aku semlm. bukannya tension sebab hujan tapi tension sebab jem.

No idea to jot down at the moment. thinking of update this blog this evening. tengok le kalo sempat. have a great day everybody. chaos!!!!

what a hectic tuesday

Today i have attended 2 meetings. Meeting is what i need to avoid at a first place. Morning, attended financial meeting. After lunch, another meeting on finance. As an IT person, benda2 melibatkan kewangan ni I cuba nak avoid. Not that I don't like it, just that I really don't like to make a budget for my department. Kena pulak menjawab nanti kalo department tak belanja betul2.